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bliss_immunity) wrote2014-07-11 12:58 am
bliss_immunity) wrote2014-07-11 12:58 am
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As Lead Medical Officer, You Will Carry Out the Sentence
With Anna's bliss still ringing in his ears, Joshua blinked and found himself back on Tabula Rasa. It was over. If he weren't so tired from it all - traumatized by what had happened, he would have run up to the main compound to make sure Cam was back as well. He wondered how long they'd been gone. There was a pang in his heart that Wanderer might have thought he had disappeared.
A hot meal sounded really good. He couldn't remember how long it had been since he'd eaten last. However, the idea of being around other people was unbearable. He'd killed David again. Not only had he allowed things to progress on that day as they had previously, but he'd accepted Anna's bliss again.
He wanted to go back to his hut in New Atlantis. He wanted to find Cam and Wanderer and make sure they were both ok. He wanted to eat something. He wanted some sleep. But he couldn't move in either direction. He couldn't make a decision on where to go.
He stood on the path completely immobilized. A look of concern and sadness on his face. He closed his eyes wanting to will away the memories, but finding himself bombarded by them instead. He could see David lying there. Hear David telling him that he had to skin him because he was the best hope for the resistance. Then there was screaming and so much blood.
A hot meal sounded really good. He couldn't remember how long it had been since he'd eaten last. However, the idea of being around other people was unbearable. He'd killed David again. Not only had he allowed things to progress on that day as they had previously, but he'd accepted Anna's bliss again.
He wanted to go back to his hut in New Atlantis. He wanted to find Cam and Wanderer and make sure they were both ok. He wanted to eat something. He wanted some sleep. But he couldn't move in either direction. He couldn't make a decision on where to go.
He stood on the path completely immobilized. A look of concern and sadness on his face. He closed his eyes wanting to will away the memories, but finding himself bombarded by them instead. He could see David lying there. Hear David telling him that he had to skin him because he was the best hope for the resistance. Then there was screaming and so much blood.
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"Fancy meeting you here," I said in greeting. The smile dropped off of my face when I saw his, though. I put the basket down and took his hands. "What is it?"
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When she took his hands, he pulled her close and wrapped his arms around her. He couldn't even begin to explain what had just happened. It was reassuring that she wasn't saying that she had thought he'd disappeared. That would have been too much after everything.
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I went willingly into his arms and wrapped my own around him. He'd comforted me through enough nightmares for me to recognize the other side of that situation; to know that he was the one needing comfort now. I didn't say anything. I just held him, let him hold me, until whatever demons tortured him had been battled back.
"I'm here," I said softly. "It will be all right."